this weekend was pretty emotional...on saturday, i got an email saying that one of the girls from media quit, which was quite shocking even though we'd talked about it before...it just meant we'd have to change our entire script again..and its frustrating..wiht only 6 weeks left till the first TC! and she was my partner..so it feels like its my fault that she's leaving...*sigh* she still hasn't called me either. soo yeah..that and the same morning..my dad's car engine died and the car is now totalled, so i didn't see him on saturday...promiseland is getting tiring having to spend so much time on it everyweek..but its serving God so maybe i should just not get involved in so many things..but i can't really change now..and on top of that theres the FEB 18 DEADLINE..eeek. i'm so dead for that..unless i just give up..but..yea. sometimes i feel like i wanna give up...it seems like Satan is attacking everywhere..especially each of us on the media team, and trying to break up the team. But...he won't win..we won't let him..and as Danielle said..we'll come out stronger in the end if we can handle this. Need to pray alot for the team..thanks Chris for being there for me...and telling me not to give up =)
Later on saturday...went with Chris to markville, met up with gord, julie, amanda, aaron, pam, cam, sam and victoria...then went to aaron's house..bought stuff for dinner from Sobeys..fajitas and tacos =D it was GOOD...then we watched Dodgeball and played poker...then i went home.
today..went to church and the speaker was Pastor Brian Quan..pretty good message about the 7 deadly sins and stuff, and it really spoke to me..that we can't change people but have to change ourselves first..hmm..might watch WImbeldon today cuz cat and char are finally done exams.
this week...gonna be working like an ant...gotta finish about 13 units before feb 12 and write 6 tests..boo urns!
oh yeah..and happy birthday to Warren and Alison!

*sigh* today..was the kicker. i'm not a person who gets angry alot or keeps grudges at ALL, but i've tried for so long to put up with this person...but its really getting to me now.i can't stand it anymore. I guess...i should really talk to this person..but i think they know how i feel. i wish things didn't have to be like this...but for some reason, everyone is afraid of you, afraid to stand up to you, and yet...you still take advantage of your own friends as if they're your slaves. How can you be so blind and still not see how you treat them? Even if you do not care what people think of you, one day no one will be able to put up with you. I'm not the only one who sees it, and you say things without thinking and do the same exact annoying frustrating things over and OVER. you never know how to SHUT your mouth!

i really need patience right now..its so hard to forgive her for everything and not think of her badly. right now..i try to be nice cause i feel sorry for her. not gonna happen anymore...ARGGGHHHH!!

on a lighter note..i've finally taken up blogging since the holidays!
i miss them soo much! i also miss summeR! and the sunshine! and rollerblading in the park or shopping downtown when not everywhere is dark and shadowy. Christmas vacation was definitely fun but not the best. Some of the highlights were
* playing with my dad's new doggie
* Raptors Game with Natalie and Patty
* sleepover at Char's, babysitting her dogs
* dinner @Godfather's
* dinner with dad's family
* dinner @my house w/Chris
* TC media rules filming! soooo jokes!
* Snow camp with Chris and Sam (the three-some)
* Snowboarding with Chris and others
* Alethia winter "retreat"
* New Year's dinner @Chris's
* going out and not doing any homework till the last day =D

since school started life seems to just drag along. so much homework to do, and now gotta focus on deadlines! Trying to make the unit 9 deadline isn't easy...wanna get early acceptance..possibly for Waterloo. *bleck* gotta work hard!
Me and Chris are still good...9 months in two weeks. eek. i counted. haha. but i'm soo not obsessed! we're still getting closer as time goes by...went through a really hard time last month, but we got through it...we don't get to spend alot of time together but whenever we do..things are fun cuz we won't get bored of each other SOMETIMES. =D

+ The TJCAC v-ball team is officially started! we're called "Serving 4 Life" haha. thanks nathan! We'll be playing feb-may in the afc league every other monday starting feb...alethians and friends can come play too...=) i'm excited. i hope its fun and i don't get hit in the face..hahah unless chris comes =P