wow, its been a STRESSFUL week! but its all over, and now i'm getting ready for an even more stressful week. its pretty much the last week of normal school days at ward, but while people in every other school in Toronto is winding down on work and starting to study for exams, the workload at ward is reaching its MAX. last week was craaaazyyyy...all week was worrying about failing this couse and that..might still fail accounting if my teacher feels like failing me...but...she's already been so nice and i have a feeling God wants me to PASS...sooo plspls let me finish..*sigh* got like 10 tests to write this week..maybe more, but half of them are math tests for units that i didn't even do so i'll hafta study my BUTT OFF....eeekkkk..still gotta make it to summer school and carryover for law and religion..then after that, there's art and photography to finish until the middle of june..arghhhhhhhh....still gotta do lotsa prep for STM in Atlanta..gotta catch up on my prayer partner and stuff..been missing sunday school and stuff for the past few weeks cuz of CIA...ahh mann why is it so much work to take care of kids?? and i want like 6 of them, but hopefully..these ones can behave tomorrow and the last cia will be a blast!!! then after that..its just summer camp and TrailMix VBS camp...hmm forgot to hand in my application form for counselluoring..ahhhh oopsies.

anyways, since my last entry...i went to ottawa for the victoria day weekend with my dad, step-mom and 9-year old half-sis..she's soo ADORABLE! but very annoying and rebellious sometimes..reminds me so much of me..but i can't believe i was THAT bad..prolly not..she's such a tomboy , which weirdly attracts many young boys..well anyways, that weekend was fun! visited family friends, and went to dinner with this couples cell group thing..met some cool people there, and then on sunday we went to their church, OCAC, and i saw TIM my tc group! that was really cool cuz he came down to TO one day and ended up going to carrie's church who's also from our tc group..oooOoooOo ahhh wel, anyway, then went to see the tulip festival at dow's lake..saw some magic shows and stuff too, then drove home..it was fun! lotsa bondign time with family...i'm glad i went and got to spend time with them.

hmmm monday, went to dinner with Chris's family, and then went to his house and we watched My Sassy Girl...tuesday, i ate lunch with him and went to his house after school..wednesday, went to his house after school...thursday was the closing ceremony at school, so had free lunch and spent a period out in the warm sunshine on the hill...then went to chris's hosue after school and skippped d-boat and night school..sooo much work to do! friday.didn't have shcoool in teh mornign so went to chris's hosue again..hahhahh WE HAVE NO LIFE...spent like everysingle day with him this week!! i think i'm gonna go crazy..but in a good way =) afterschool, went to chris's house again, and ate a bit of dinner then went to softball practice. it was a pretty good practice, got to scrimmageand stuff. afterwards was Praise and Worship night for Hosanna/Alethia, then me, Chris, Janette, Eric, and Adrian went to Jack Astors for some snacks..it was OUR DINNER..eric is sooo funny!! the whole time was soo jokes lol *shake it up* and talked about softball and stuff, saw pat there..oh yeah adrian's letting me play SECOND BASE!!!!!!!1 YAYYYY!!!!!!!!! heehee..i wanna get over my fear of the ball..i'm not that scared, but it always always hits me even if i catch it and it bounces out of my glove...THAT hurts..kills ltosa barin cells too..oh well..its summer, who needs to think? oh yeah. my first time seeing road kill that night too!!!! saw this raccoon get killed TWICE on sheppard ave.when leaving church...it was sooo SAD..i wanted to cry!! it was so helpless cuz it got hit, and then so utterly STUPID cuz it got up..crawled a few steps and got hit again,and something flew off..*eeeewwww* guys are so HEARTLESS!! eric and adrian laughed so hard when we told them adrian started crying..geewhiz.they can't even feel sorry for the poor thing!
ahhh anyway, today went to dentist and then costco, then early YUM-CHA, then shopped for like 1 hour at markville..got new sunglasses from roots!! they'er sooo SEXYYYY!!!!! nice and dark..and makes me look like a hippie? but it was LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT had to get them....also got joe boxer stuff from la vie en rose was having a big sale. later on chris came over to help me with my homework..and now i'm here DOING HOMEWORK..ahhh gotta get back to that..

going to Ottawa for the weekend!!! gonna be back late sunday night..sorry for leaving you guys who are doing iron chef..i'm sure guys are gonna kick buTT! misss you allll!!! *especially the lil loser who's in macmaster =)* jk...

YESSSSS!!!!!!! finally, i'm kinda caught up on my work...this week can be considered pretty productive, compared to the past year haha, when i was REALLY REALLY LAZY! i'm still really really lazy..but..gotta sit myself down and finish this YEAR! if i don't, i KNOW i'm gonna be really dissappointed in myself and regret it for the rest of my life probably..i duno and dissapoint a lot of other people too..well, i guess that's the reason why im' gona finish! school is my number one priority now.till at least june..i'm not only doing it for myself..but i guess for the people who have been pushign me to finish school no matte rhow hard it is..and for the other people who care about me and don't care if i hate them for bugging me a billin times a day to do my work.....

hmm soooo past three days..have just been filled with school! except yesterday..started my long weekend at the hillsongs concert on thurs...gordon drove w/me and chris there..and it was jam-PACKED and the line up was mad long when we got there..but our "connections" got us in.fast enough to get ok spots..=) the concert was awesome..the group got split up, but it didn't matter where we sat or stood, all that mattered was the worship..that came from our hearts.the Hillsongs band is sooooooo GOOD!! never been more hyper at a worship concert than this..even more people theret than chris tomlin...the only bad thign was that it was sweaty and hot and the front section smelled like ppl's B.O! but it was all worth it! the people i stood around dint' smell THAT bad.except maybe chris o.O =) jk...and WOW...gordon can SING!! he's such a sweet guy and SMART!..hhee..meeting more and more new ppl lately..mostly chris's friends =)

well, not much else going on lately..today was fellowship cell groups..we basically played lotsa games..felt like a little kid again! well, i always feel like that when i go there...but its fun...i feel so old with them...hmm softball was great too..fianlly got to practice some batting!! heehe...its getting betterrr.!! m'be its just the pitchers or something, but i coudl actuallly hit past the gravel this time *yippeee* hmm and lets see..tmw..gotta go homework..lots of it!! i have like 15 units to do over the weekend..hmm might go watch 13 going on 30...or mean girls! Sunday is church, and then IRON CHEF!!! me and cat's cell groups are gonna make the coolest MEANEST prettiest YUMMIEST banana cream pie/crepes/shake/split/SOUP ever! *smiles* sooo excited....and monday chris is coming back...heehee..=) *smiles* i'm so thankful for someone like him...he's truly an angel from GOD..we're so alike so he understands me better than anyone else in the world...Chris..ur my motivation..my shoulder to cry on..the person who makes me laugh so much i spilled orange juice on carpet..and making me fall on the grass and get mud stains on my butt...even though ur slow, and lazy..i love you for who u are..and everything u've done for me is making my life so much better every day...i'm gonna u soo much when ur in macmaster!! =( CALL MEE or i'll be MAD..rememeber my last words to you today? lol..

"Jesus...I love you more than life"

+ this weekend was really really tiring! but so far the BEST weekend so far..everyweekend is the best..cuz i get to spend it with him...but still.it was lots of fun! saturday morning..went to write the softball umping exam at 10..which was really really early for me considering the hour at which i went to sleep the previous night...hmm well, it wasn't that hard!! was soooo nervous though..i'd better get carded or i'll punch someone cuz i studieddd sooo hard..ahhh oh well...haha i htink i did bad on the video test..but everythign else was mostly okay, hey if adrian can PASS with an 88%, than anyone can..hahhaa...and he copied off MY test!! :P adrian stinks..man...him and byron were so lonely they had to go out on a date together!! HEEHEE..so funieee...after softball me and chris dropped them off somewhere and then went to eat dinner @my dad's place...watched Collateral Damage which is a really relaly GOOD movie!!! Schwarzzenager..(errr i can't spell) is really good in the movie..and he has a BOD!! ohmann!!! saw so many sexxy hot guys in movies this weekend! watched the last half of rundown on sunday, and that dude..something-something-JR. is really HOTttt!!! like wow!! u think he's got a nice bod..but wait till he takes off his SHIRT!! the brazillian tae-kwon-do guy..but he gets shot =( poor hot dude...*sigh* if only somebody could look good like that!!! heheeh JUST JOKING CHRIS =) hmm saturday was pretty fun! went for dim-sum wif my mommy and gramma before softball..and saw aaron there!! i miss that kid..SOMETIMES!!!! *sigh* sometimes i worry about him..i dunooo since lotsa things have changed..and so fast..i'm glad we still talk, and i think experienceing the past relationshp really let me grow..and learn for the better because people can change and feelings can change so quickly..u just can't take everyone for granted, especially those that you love the most :) hmm..i hope you be careful with ur choices in life, and take good care of urself...keep depending on GOD, don't let things pull you away from him..sometimes its so frustrating, when you see your friends going down a wrong path.but they won't listen no matter how hard u try to tell them, even if they know they're doing something wrong but still do it...o well..right now its so hard to keep up with everyone, even though iwanna help my friends...just no time now to talk to everyone and stuff..its hard..i miss people soooo much!!! stupid SCHOOl...mann me and chris say this like everyday..schools sucks! i still love going to school to do stuff, and have fun, and see my friends..but like..homework is a bite in the BUTT!!! well, anyways..what else..this weekend..dinner at my dad's was cool..Chris got to meet myfamily and stuff and i htink they loved him at first sight!!! =) cuz ur such a sweetie...helping carry furniture up and down the stairs and eveyrhting =) hehe...TEAMWORK baby! now my lil' sis has a tv in her room and she's NINE..*sigh* kids these days are so spoiled! hmm well, after that, went to chris's place and watched the friends finale..FINALLY!!!! the entire thing instead of bits and pieces of it!!! *grr* hehe...then chilled there until amanda came over and we played scrabble with her and chris and pam...me and chris kicked all their BUTTS!! (by 2 points) but STILL...showed them we're actualliee smart..or that chris is actually smart..but just so STINKIN' LAZY!!! WOOHOOO1! WE'RE UNBEATABLE..in Cranium and Scrabble..muahahhahhhahhahah...
sunday..went to church..went to worship, and heard an awesome sermon from Rev. Doug Weibe. he's kinda old, and has white hair, and has travelled almost everywhere in teh world including missions in china (so he can speak chinese..really really good...from 13 years of experience.haha almost better than me!) but yeah..he has this passion for God and teaching others about it...told us how to be ambassadors for Christ. An amazing story is of Raymond and Sherry Xiang, the parents of Cecilia Xiang, the abducted and murdered 9-year old from NOrth York. A pastor i htink his name was Daniel Lee or something, after hearing that her body was found, thought first of the parents, and thought of vistiing them..i mean..that is touching cuz no one would think of reading something in teh newspaper..but actually DOING something about it! that's the kind of people CHRIST calls us to be..people who ACT..and let HIm work MIRACLES in our lives..Raymond and Sherry became Christians the day Daniel visited them in their home...when they lost their daughter..they had nothing and no one to turn to except for God...he was their comfort in the hardest times..they got baptized last week at SCAC and further more, at Cecilia's funeral, Raymond shared about his new faith in Christ and shared about God'slove and peace to an entire crowd, an entire city, the government, and an entire NATION even...it's so amazing what a single person can do...being an ambassador doesn't mean u have to do something HUGE , but even a small thing...having compassion on people...helping someone who's hurt and needing his LOVE =) its the best thing anyone can receive *smiles*

+ hmm well, finally got something off my mind today...i'm so glad she talked to us...and although its gonna be hard..i hope she can get over it soon...and that we can be one big happiee family hahhaha (i know i sound gay) o well...i missed her so much, and it just sucks.that so many people WANT YOU CHRIS..*haha who are u kidding* =P ...we'll jsut hafta cut him into little pieces..so everyone can have a piece =) YUM...
+ ok. problaby not gona blog for the rest of this week..until the hillsongs conert is over and that is basically the start of my LONG WEEKEND!! early start too!! hehhee...probably not gona go to school friday cuz i won't get work done on thurs anywyas..unless i'm desperate..hm i duno. need some REST! need to practice my batting..its SUCKS CRAP right now..missed like every other pitch on sunday.*sigh* i need ivan's pitching!!! okieeeee well..guess that's it for now!!

+ just got home from fellowship...i'm so glad i went...it was fun!! I feel like i'm in CIA again sometimes, helping out with the little kids, but i guess it's pretty cool to see them growing up..to think that I WAS ONCE a gr7 or 8 is just scaryyy now!!! but anyways..a cool bunch to be with...and the old pioneers of HOsanna are now just waiting for the day when we get "promoted" haha..but yeah..everything is just great! today we talked about having compassion on people..and the difference between that and pity, is that having compassion is actually DOING. like Christ did...we have to show our love to people through our ACTIONS, not just by feeling sorry for them..people were moved by his love for the weak, poor, sick, lonely, and homeless...he challenges us to have this kind of heart because "the harvest is plentiful but the workers are few.." hehe..today was just really encouraging! so many new faces..with so many old ones, just all coming together and growing together =) go W.E.E.D.! (worshipping ecstaticly every day) *errrrr* at least its more original than A&O!

School is just really stressing me out these days...everytime i go out or do anything fun its always on my mind!! i can't even sleep without feeling guilty that i didn't finish something..but ahhh..i can't push myself anymore, its just too much...two art courses took up like my entire YEAR!!! can't spend so much time in the basement next year or i'm gonna dieeeeee...!! (but since im' taking two again..mostlikely i'll spend even more time down there) aiiiii..well, this is my plan so far: summer school for enlish and math and carryover-accounting, carryover for law and possibly religion..yep..that basically sums it up for all my courses! gonna do TONS of work this weekend...no pain no gain..mann dats so true o.O
HMM well, what else..
highlight of my day was..
DRAGONBOAT!!! this was the best practice EVER!! did 30s pieces which was the most intense we've done so far, but it wasn't so bad! i think it was easier than the three minute pieces from last time..back is KILLING me...but not as bad as last time! it gets easier every time and more fun..did a bit of race starting today which was cool....everyone was just so energized today, and everyone was so unified and in sync with their paddling that it felt like we weren't doing any work...dragonboat is just a mind game...no matter how tired u are..u hafta tell urself to keep going or you'll let down yourself AND the TEAM...one little person may not seem significant..but 20 team members together is HUGEE...team cheer: MARY!MARY!MARY! WARD!WARD!WARD! MARY! WARD! MARY! WARD! oogaoogaoogaooga...? (we're so original aren't we?)

hmm sooo going back to this week..thursday, went to the science centre for the Canadian High School Art/Multi-media show, watched films all day and looked at photography stuf..was pretty coool, and then ate at mcd's w/everyone..i also got my last physics test back todayyy..and did a lot worse than i thougth...81..but hopefulliee i can still finish w/a 90! my physics teacher is soo SMART..he's an actual PHYSICIST *i didn't even know those ppl were around anymore* but yeah..ahhhh scaryyy gotta actually do work to get marks, they dont' just give it to you like the teachers who are there for the money....darnnnnnn...

well, life is really good now...i can't be happier...i'm so thankful that i have HIM to support me...i don't know if i woudl be working as hard if he wasn't my constant motivation..we haven't even had a single fight yet..hehe..and he understands me..most of the time....even though he's really GAY sometimes...i dont' know what i would do w/out u =)

wow...time sure goes by quickly!! i swear i just updated this like.YESTERDAY...but the blogger says otherwise..ah well.lots is goin on lately..i can just feel the excitement in anticipation fo SUMMER..even the WEATHER is getting better which is a good sign! hehe..it was POURING when i got home..but he sun came out and dried up the roads so i could go do my driving lesson! isn't GOD AWESOME?? just how he makes everything work out for you...and now i'm startnig to notice the little things...i dont' think it was only coincidence today..but that was really cool..it woke me up so id din't fall asleep in the car, and the warm sunshine just makes me feel really happy! (although, i'm so happy right now i don't think anything can make me happier!) except if it was VACATION right NOW.anyways...right now i'm LOVING LIFE!!!! i'm loving GOD, and i'm loving my beautiful sexy girl--i mean, MAN friend =)

+ lets see..haven't blogged since tues, so heres a summary of my life since then! wednesday to friday last week i worked at the art show almost half of every day..the art show was a real big success..i even sold one of my jewellery pieces to my pregnant law teacher..she's so pretty and SWEET.and...offered to buy it for whatever price she wants..i mean WOW...i never expecte dthat....*smiles* well..i might just give it to her for the cost of materials...its her birthday and goodbye present..i'll miss her sooo much!! that woman made law class actually FUN ..hopefully i'm passing it though. ^.^ *errgG* KAY anyways. thursday..dragonboat was cancelled cuz of the lightening, so headed back with kevin's mom got dropped off at chris's house...then after sleeping in night school again, chris picked me up and went to his house for birthday cake =) mmmmmMm i forgot to eat some today. but some piggy who lives in his house probably ate it all..mmmMM chocolate, coffee mocha almond cake!

+ friday..chilled with chris after school, then went to fellowship for mother's day OASIS Café..wow.i think there was like 140 people there? it was so cool! the biggest thing Alethia/Hosanna has ever done wiht food..i think..after that, went for sundaes with chris and went home at 11. =) haha. my mom likes him too much. or she's jealous cuz i'm being taken away =) speaking of which...the only thing that is hard to think about right now is friendship w/a certain person...its dissapointing as well as saddening that she woudl think liek this...and not even try to talk to me or him..we deserve to hear it from her..instead i'm getting a less-friendly attitude and haering about stuff behind my back..*sigh* i really wanan resolve this but how can i do that..when they try to push it away and not face the facts....it doenst help anything

+ hm thn saturday acm along..went to Umpiring clinic in the morning, and then mike drove us to lunch at licks...then went to the park to see if anyone was gonna play softball but it started POURING so no on-field that day. oh well....i guess i'll just hafta study harder!!! better get carded or i'm gonna be so mad..even chris passed..if he can do it i can =) right chris...=) went to nat's house with nathan,nadine,mike,joe,and chris to watch The Last Samurai...i LOVE that movie..its one of my favourites now along with My sassy girl and titanic and walk to remember and triplex...after wards it was Chris's birthday dinner at Le Bifteck! we shared 32oz. steak..medium-rare! whaha i think i can handle rare next time then! =) it was fun..met all his friends..they seem to be pretty nice...and then went to marty's house to chill after...played cranium and we beat pam and kam!!! *giggles*

+ sunday was tc captain/counsellour meeting and lunch at church..warren came and we were chatting about stuff w/jan and jackie..got to see new york pix..and talk about some fellowship stuff w/arthur for father's day!! we're also planning to paint arthur's ceiling with a checker board..

+ last but not least...this weekend was one to remember..cuz we finally became official...and although things aren't much different..its great to know that he'll always be there...he's helped me through so much stuff...encouraged me in many ways, and gave me motivation to work hard haha =P THANKS CHRISSY aka. stinky aka. booger *muahs*

+ eunice can now do three-point turns all by herself!!! weeeeee!!!!! they're soooo fun. i coudl do them all day if my instructor woudl lemme...woww...i'm soo gonna miss driving lessons i only have 9 more left..but then..can't wait till G2 time cuz its gonna be even more fun!!! driving is the highlight of my week..yesterday had a wendy's/timmy's date w/janz (my #1 LESBO) and we got maple-walnut muffins!! MMmMmM soo GOOD!! i'm gonna get jm to steal the recipie for me and i'm gonan make some!! heheehe ok. you don't hafta eat them if you wanna live...but they might turn out good!

+ today was FUN again...went to his place for lunch...we made dumplings and siu-long-bau....*yummmy*and then went back after school and ate "dinner" heheheh ..watched "love and basketball' after schoool..buh didnt' get to finish it ..such a cute movie!!! =) not exactly a guy movie but not a chickflick either..i like!! hehee well, i dunno i guess people have been asking about what is going on between us.but its pretty obvious...*smiles* thanks for everything..you make my weeks so much fun..chilling after school, taking me out for lunch, visiting me *unexpectedly*, HOGGING up my fridays AND my saturdays!!!!!!!! but its still good!! i have my MOTIVATION to do good in school now..thank youuuuuuu for helping me through so much already =) gotta finish this year!! 90 avg!!!

+ Chris Tomlin concert was AMAZING!! There was just an awesome spirit yesterday at QueenswayCathedral...it was huge..the entire place was filled up including the side and the balconies...everyone was just praising GOD in their own way..and strangers were holding hands and worshipping together as brothers and sisters in Christ...it was HYPE!!!Chris tomlin's has HOT talent..wow..what a voice range he has like 2 full octaves or something...and Louie Giglio's message was really moving as well..he was talking about how the Passion Team really wanted to do a concert in Boston for free because of the need there adn so few Christians..and how Cities from all over America gave from their hearts..and made it possible for a free concert (which was the hugest in Boston's history) as well as left over for the ministries there!! it was touching....how BIG the hearts of people can be becuase of CHRIST's love...Toronto is changing too...its up to us to change the world guys...even the littlest thing you can do like giving your paycheck for the month..can reach so many more people..and even if you're young.."dont' let anyone look down on you becuase you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith and in purity." hmm went to congee wong w/derrick, ros,joe and chris after...was so jokes...lol.chris and his mandarin.."ARRR"...lol...and joe and chris kept making fun of my chinese! not very nice people! =P its not THAT bad i bet its better than theirs at least....*grrrrrr*

+ ahhhhh!!!!!!!! wow..i'm LUCKy i slept in this morning...forgot all about CIA program todayyy and had to make lesson plan and everything this morning at 10! had like 15 minutes to do it...but turned out okay..i love the kids..i want lotsa kids when i grow up...at least 4....:) hmm gona try to get the chris tomlin video up! taped almost the entire Holy Is The Lord...hehehe he's sooo HOT!!!!! actually the electric guitar dude is CUTE!!! and the drummer was crazyyyyyy!!!!!! bass guy..has nice hair. really really curly hair and on white guys is so adorable...

+ okay gotta go work....THREE UNITS TO FINISH TODAY!!!! haha i have my motivation.......lunch or no lunch...=(

haah okayyyy so much for writing everyday...shhhhhhhh =) well, this week..to sum it up..i spent alot of time witha certain person!! so much i'm gonna be SICK...haahah lunchtime..after school tues &thurs hehe..friday lunch AND the rest of the day..wow..was gonna do an all-nighter...but i was soooo tired (sorrie) woulda fallen asleep on him anyways...=P well yesterday we had our first boat practice for d-boat!!! took the subway down to keele station and then took the bus to lakeshore for practice! it was soo awesome and fun! my muscles are tired and my back and shoulders are aching likee crazy from paddling...doing DIRTY DOZENS hurtssss..but yeah..i shouldn't complain cuz there were adults liek 50 year olds paddling as well which is so cool!! i wonder if i'l e able to do that when i'm 50! probly not...LOL..but yeah..after that..bused back w/some of the team..didn't get to go eat with them boooooo =( but yeah..that was really really cold..it was raining and my jacket was SOAKED from the lake water whcih was stinky..there was like POO in the water!!! disgusting..and to think our water comes from lake ontario? never drinking tap water again in my LIFE! ewwwwww not even water fountains!!! dirrrrrrrrtyyyyyyyyy....but yeah..went to kyrios afterward and then chiled w/those ppl after..hehe was a pretty fun day!
i guess today.my daddy's coming soon...gonna say hi..i miss him so much!!!! dont' really get to see him much anymore my saturdays are always so busy!! i feel bad...o well...hehe..i miss my mommy too..i don't realy get to talk to her much...and lately things have been getting a LOT better! we're both trying so hard to understand each other...i'm gona be a good girl!!! =) and yeah..now that my gramma's back...gotta take care of her too!

hmmm today is the chris tomlin concerT!! woohooooooo!!!!!!! going w/hosanna tuh Queensway...its gonna be wickeD!!! gonna watch kill bill 2 before that...and...pretty much that's it...spending the whole day w/him again....*smiles* ur right..everything DOES seem so PERFECT right now..its just one of those times when everything is so unsure...what people will think about you..what people will say..but like we learned at the workshop yesterday..everythign we do can be an act of worship..even our day-to-day relationships, work, school, chores, family....i can really feel GOD in this..in the center of everything...gotta just trust and see what happens =)
+done I Kissed Dating Goodbye!!!! heheeh took like two weeks..now reading Boy Meets Girl

art show is coming in 2 days!!!!!!!!! EVERYONE COME TO WARD FOR THE ART SHOW IT'S GONNA BE SUPER-DUPER AMAZING!! drop by anytime next week..even after school...i think its like $2-3...woww i'm sooo glad the interior model is finished!! stayed up till 5 finishing itt ahhhhh...now deadlines are coming!! 12 units for june2..i'm so DEAD....