*sigh* i dont' know what to do anymore...theres actually NOTHING i can do maybe, but it'd eating at me from the inside out and totally KILLING me. here i am..with midterms and everything going on..trying hard to get studyign done but never getting to it..trying to pretend that i'm happy too..trying to have fun when i'm out with peopel..but nothing works. i can't talk to ANYONE about it, not even you..i can't talk to you about anything that's bothering me now..cuz everything i say and do comes out the wrong way...and then you just push me away...at least you're surrounded by people who love you, while i'm miles away, can't talk to anyone..its KILLING me. yo'ure the last person that i'd wish to be in an argument with, or have be angry at mee..it feels like you're angry at me, too tired to talk, always busy pretending to have fun to even talk, and telling me what to do like i'm always wrong and can't make my own decisions...i didn't do a DAMN thing..

dunno what to do God..help me