+ just got home from fellowship...i'm so glad i went...it was fun!! I feel like i'm in CIA again sometimes, helping out with the little kids, but i guess it's pretty cool to see them growing up..to think that I WAS ONCE a gr7 or 8 is just scaryyy now!!! but anyways..a cool bunch to be with...and the old pioneers of HOsanna are now just waiting for the day when we get "promoted" haha..but yeah..everything is just great! today we talked about having compassion on people..and the difference between that and pity, is that having compassion is actually DOING. like Christ did...we have to show our love to people through our ACTIONS, not just by feeling sorry for them..people were moved by his love for the weak, poor, sick, lonely, and homeless...he challenges us to have this kind of heart because "the harvest is plentiful but the workers are few.." hehe..today was just really encouraging! so many new faces..with so many old ones, just all coming together and growing together =) go W.E.E.D.! (worshipping ecstaticly every day) *errrrr* at least its more original than A&O!

School is just really stressing me out these days...everytime i go out or do anything fun its always on my mind!! i can't even sleep without feeling guilty that i didn't finish something..but ahhh..i can't push myself anymore, its just too much...two art courses took up like my entire YEAR!!! can't spend so much time in the basement next year or i'm gonna dieeeeee...!! (but since im' taking two again..mostlikely i'll spend even more time down there) aiiiii..well, this is my plan so far: summer school for enlish and math and carryover-accounting, carryover for law and possibly religion..yep..that basically sums it up for all my courses! gonna do TONS of work this weekend...no pain no gain..mann dats so true o.O
HMM well, what else..
highlight of my day was..
DRAGONBOAT!!! this was the best practice EVER!! did 30s pieces which was the most intense we've done so far, but it wasn't so bad! i think it was easier than the three minute pieces from last time..back is KILLING me...but not as bad as last time! it gets easier every time and more fun..did a bit of race starting today which was cool....everyone was just so energized today, and everyone was so unified and in sync with their paddling that it felt like we weren't doing any work...dragonboat is just a mind game...no matter how tired u are..u hafta tell urself to keep going or you'll let down yourself AND the TEAM...one little person may not seem significant..but 20 team members together is HUGEE...team cheer: MARY!MARY!MARY! WARD!WARD!WARD! MARY! WARD! MARY! WARD! oogaoogaoogaooga...? (we're so original aren't we?)

hmm sooo going back to this week..thursday, went to the science centre for the Canadian High School Art/Multi-media show, watched films all day and looked at photography stuf..was pretty coool, and then ate at mcd's w/everyone..i also got my last physics test back todayyy..and did a lot worse than i thougth...81..but hopefulliee i can still finish w/a 90! my physics teacher is soo SMART..he's an actual PHYSICIST *i didn't even know those ppl were around anymore* but yeah..ahhhh scaryyy gotta actually do work to get marks, they dont' just give it to you like the teachers who are there for the money....darnnnnnn...

well, life is really good now...i can't be happier...i'm so thankful that i have HIM to support me...i don't know if i woudl be working as hard if he wasn't my constant motivation..we haven't even had a single fight yet..hehe..and he understands me..most of the time....even though he's really GAY sometimes...i dont' know what i would do w/out u =)