LAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!! I LOVE LIFE!!!!!!!!
time passes by wayy too quickly!! i can't believe school is starting in a week! definitely going to make the rest of summer worth its while..do everything i can...this summer has abeen super-duper AWESOME!!! but of course i can't do EVERYTHING i want to..that will wait till next summER! anyway..i'll update on the past few weeks SOON...right now....i'm in the bestest moood ever..i love life..i love my family..i love my friends...i love chris...i love GOD..i thank him for making me such an optimistic person....i can't remember ever being unhappy for an entire day..or even more than an hour...cause theres so much to be happy about in life...i see everything like a new opportunity to make my life better =) and to make the most out of everything..even the bad things that happen make me stronger...Everything is bright and beautiful...hehe

Trail Mix/day camp IS the BOMB! every second with those kids was amazing and fun...hehe..i'm dead tired tho..and its only the first day..but its all worth it! hehe..$15 for lunch and dinner cooked by the prof. chef. EDward..soo GOOD. that's a dollar a meal including breakfast! muahahhaah living at church 5 days a week is pretty fun! Today we had small groups..i met me and nathan's group of 8 kids..tmw we're gonna have nine..we made cookies in the morning, ate lunch, went to the park and played soccer baseball, had snack, and practiced for the talent show...well, its a challenge cuz we have the oldest group, but they're still an amazing bunch of kids! and the little ones are soo ADORABLE (especially the really chubby ones, i just wanna hug and squeeze em') =) i want a kid..hehe. just joking. anyways, second day of camp, here i come!
Happy birthday to muh lesbo#1 Janzie! bbq on sat was fun, i haven't seen my school friends in so long...except for dy and janz occasionally..hmm well, painting the house is pretty stressful right now, therse alot to do and its a lot harder then i thought..helping my sister draw LINES in her room is even more nerve-wrecking..sometimes i wanna bite her head off...not seriously but UGHHHHHH......can't wait till paintint is done and we can go furniture shoppping! cousins are coming on thursday this week so gotta get ready for that..and then theres going to be lotsa family dinners, birthday dinners, road trips, wonderland stuff, bringing them around and stuff...hehe..its gonna be fun!!!! can't wait..kinda gets sad to see teh summer coming to an end though..feels like its just barely started..!
last but not least...its been 3 months for me and Chris...and its been great so far..we have our ups and downs..our arguments but not very often, and most times we're both just as stubborn so we understand each other...he's truly sent from God cuz this relationship feels really different from other ones..its God-centered and thats what brought us together =)
well, i guess that's it for now! Tomorrow there's small gruops again, and that's been really good too..learning more things about people..and getting to know some people better..i just realized that this summer i met at least like..30 new ppl through chris and softball and stuff whihc is cool =) i miss the Cousins+3 group from camp..we pretty much grew up together every summer..at the lumos/basic game on sat i talked to an old friend and realized how God really does bring people together...the world can see we're different because we act different and friends always still have something in common that we don't have with non-christian friends =) that's why i treasure my bro's and sis's in christ even more *smiles*
*deeeeeeepppppp breath*......
DONE!!!!!!!!!!! what a long blog..mannnnnn i must be really bored..tired but can't nap..hafta practice piano now toodles!

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SUMMER is the GREATEST!!!! weeeeeee!!! gonna try to update this more..hehe..this weekend is gonna be packed!! Lunch with Chris’s family friends on Saturday, then umping a double header, and dot-com barbeque afterward…and then hoping to watch bourne supremacy sometime during the week..and starting renovations to me and my sister’s room during long weekend…*yay* Went to visit Dyan today..*sniff* baby didn’t kick for me..well, I guess it doesn’t like me very much (but it will) hehe..saw the baby clothes and everything they were soooo cute!! I can’t wait..i’m soo gonna kidnap J.M. II. Anyway, then went to ikea to look at furniture with mom and sis..and as usual..we just LOOKED. We NEVER bought anything there ever during the 20billion times I’ve walked through that place…lol..except for the 50cent hotdogs..i had two today..yummmmm!

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This summer is probably the BEST summer i`ve had so far...its AWESOME!!! im` still kinda sad i can`t go to montreal.but then im` going next week too haha..been pretty caught up in softball and church stuff, but now summer is really winding UP! august is always funn..and..20 days till i`m 17!! so scary...it seems so old.yet i still feel so YOUNG *sigh* i hate growing up...funny how we say that every year..but then..it has it`s up sides..like getting my G2!! yippeeeeeee!!!!!!!its sept 3..hopefullie i pass..pray for me pls..and make sure to stay off the roads that day juss` in case =)

+ summer school is officially OVER!!!!!!!! now i don't hafta think about school for anothe rmonth and a half! yessssssssssirrrreeee!!!!! soo excited..now summer vacation is actually starting for real..althoguh its already packed with stuff..its exciting! =) well, since stm was over, i've been working my butt off at school for a week and a half..pretty much..actually less only a week and monday, and finished accoutnign and english..and today i went to school and did my math exam which was fairly easy..pretty much a total copy of the review..lucky us..i guess htey just wanted us out of there as much as we wanted out..hmm then went to chris's house and at lunch and stuff then went to stc to watch i robot. GOOD MOVIE!!! it keeps u on the edge of yoru seat..but not a scary movie..and its only rated PG so its good for kids too..the robot faces are really freaky though..especially when they open their eyes really fast and look mad...*shudders* hmmm also watched dodgeball last week which was funny..but it coulda been better if it was less predictable...then yesterday was small groups, and it was a different experience for me becuase i dont' realy know the people there that well adn they're all really close..but i guess i'll get closer w/them in time. small gruops is really encourageing..the worship and stuff that we do. and just being able to debate about different stuff about our faith

+ anyways, that's the low-down for the past week and a half..just really really borign everyday, getting no sleep and stressing out like mad over homework! well, catching up with stm stuff has been pretty hard to do. i've been DYING to email the counsellours and practice the dances and stuff, but things have been busy..well, anyways, for the people who wanna know about stm, here are some edited excerpts from my journal:

June 29th
Woke up at 4am this mornign to get ready and go to the airport...mom made me breakfast!! =) we took a flight to chicago and then to nashville, and we ate dinner there. The counsellours Rebecca and B.O.D. (big ol' dork) drove us back. got to this town a bit north of nashville called adams, and then settled in and started meeting new people. Nighttime worship was AMAZING, and then we had a talk about purpose, proclamation, purity, and passion..pretty tired and ready to sleep 
 
June 30th
today was our first day of training on the base, and i met lotsa people today! everyone is mostly caucasian and have southern accents, which is realy cooll..i wonder how its gonnn abe like celebrating canada day with them...all the other teams' kids are a lot younger...(13,14,15) but its really encouraging to see their passion for God..at such as young age too. i guess one of my expectations is to try to be a better role model for them...especially the ones going to Atlanta

July 1st
Happy Canada Day!Today was an amazing day--so many things happened, so basically summarizing everything as i go along. Quiet times are a big part of each day, as well as a prayer walk..just enjoyign nature and praying for whatever is on your heart...i felt alot closer to God here with the trees and flowers and black mostquitoes than i usually do at home...The message tonight was about Jesus being passionate to be our bride..he's always waiting for us, so we have to wait for him as well..a Passion Play was put on..it was totally moving, adn i saw my sins written down on a piece of paper with a nail on it..and put ina  bag that was nailed to the cross with Christ...it really reminded just how much more his pain was..becuase of our sins..every single one of us
 
Theme Song: Every Nation
Every knee will bow
And every tongue confess,
That Jesus You are Lord
Every heart will seek
What your heart seeks
Every nation, will come to know you lord!

All the nations you have made
Will worship you oh lord
They'll bring Glory, glory to your name

just a quick update...
+ stm was the most amazing experience ever...when i have time i'm gonna write out my journal on blogger..sharing night is on July 30th around 7 at TJCAC
+ done accounting and english today! english was 11 pages long..but..i shouldn't complain...just glad that its over *sigh* now theres math to do..gonna be done that on wednesday then i'm FREEEEE!!!!!!!
 
coming up:
* finishing summer school
* girls day in unionville/sleepover at gee's?
* christian's pool party
* wonderland w/janz and hk friends
* CCSA softball mid-season mixer
* getting my G2
* shopping with girls/shopping with chris
* spending quality time w/chris
* eric's NINETEENTH birthday???
* painting/renovating me and hannah's rooms
* Trail Mix daycamp
* drama team production
* cousins coming from states
* the beach with EVERYONE!!!
* STM Sharing Night July 30 and Aug 1
* my birthday
* dy's birthday
* janette's birthday
* christian's birthday
* sammo's birthday
* andrea's birthday
 

What i can't live without for a day:
* God
* Chris
* Janette
* mom
* a warm bed
* home-cooked meals (including cup noodles)
* junkfood
* music
* sleep
* makeup (including lip balm)

What i'm not having for 10 days:
* Chris
* Janette
* a warm bed
* home-cooked meals
* junkfood
* music
* makeup
* TV
* internet/msn/aa/email
* family
* home sweet home
* sleep


hmmm.what can i say? i can't believe i'm going on a missions trip to Nashville/Atlanta tomorrow!!! its something i've wanted to do for a few years, and the perfect opportunity finally came this year. after months of preparation we're finally going!! time FLIES by...i don't know what to expect when we go and i don't wanna leave my friends and family..but it'll be a learning experience for me..hopefully i'll come back a little more mature *ha!* and a little more grown up *haha!*and a little closer to my best friend--Jesus! i'm feeling alot of things right now..mostly excited..i doubt i can sleep tonight..hafta wake up around 3:30am anyway..pick up cat, sharon, tim..and head to the airport to arrive by 5:45!!!! Nashville here i come!! be back in 10 days...
Chris: don't eat too much junkfood/fatstuff *its for your own good*. don't stay up too late (but don't sleep TOO much. clean your room and fold ur clothes the RIGHT way. don't worry about me. don't watch Dodgeball without me. drive safely. don't hurt yourself pleaseee. no drinking coke. don't miss me too much!!! *smiles* i love you!!

+ HAPPY BIRTHDAY GEN!!!!!!! ( 12 days ago )
+ getting my G2 mid-July..yayy!!
+ started Accounting, Math, and English in Summer school today...gotta finish after my missions trip..wow...1.5 weeks to finish 3 courses! wooppeee
+ [dot]COM won our first CCSA softball game on sat...good job team!
+ Prom was really really fun!!! I forgot my camera...*arghhh* but took a few pictures which are on different' ppls cams...pix coming later...as well as end of year bbq and dragonboat pictures..!!! hmm...lets see if this one works
[ claud, me, shells at Centre Island ]

WOW! WHAT A WEEKEND! the word S-C-H-O-O-L is no longer a word in my vocab..at least for the past week and the next week or so...its amazing how fast time passes you by especially when you're having fun!! well..last week i went back to ward to make jewellery..and had some quality time to chat w/my art teacher..who got me all excited about next year!! can't wait..she's getting us a set of engraving stamps and all this cool stuff..and she's so inspiring..i wanna start my own business..and make jewellery part time when i grow up..haha i know i'm dreaming..but its soo fun!!! hmm thursday was the last dragonboat practice before the race on saturday, but it was really discouraging cuz it WAS our last practice and i did horrible. wasn't in the mood. well, got to see chris everyday last week which was a GOOD thing..and he came over for dinnner on thurs adn we made sushi!! hhehe still hafta make sushi for his parents for dinner before i leave =) 8 days until Atlanta! time is flying, and to be honest, i still don't feel like i'm ready..physically..cuz i hafta get in shape and go shopping for stuff..plus find time to pack and get some sleep! and spiritually..cuz i havetn' been doing my devos..having a prayer partner really helps, cuz he keeps me accountable and gives me something to do that isn't for myself..this week..i wanns spend more time with God and get prepared..cuz if we're not prepared..when the hard times come we can't overcome it. prayer isn't just for when we need something FROM God...we need him ALWAYS, and there isn't much we can GIVE him except to trust him. read his word. and share his LOVE with others. i pray that we'll go with open hearts and open minds..last year the mission team said that although they gave of themselves to the innercity kids..they brought back much more--LESSONS of LIFE that you can't learn and experience anywhere else but the missionfield..i don't know what to expect but i'm excited to find out!!!! =) 8 days!!!!!!

+ DRAGONBOAT season is finally OVER (not like i want it to be), but it is..and we had a HARD, EXHAUSTING, but AWESOME finish to the season by placing fourth at the Centre Island Races on Saturday! We definitely improved alot from Pickering, where we were a bunch of rookies who had never raced before. Centre Island was soo funn...got there at 8:30 in the morning..set up camp, and then spent some team time..slept, walked around the island, ate lunch, and prepped together for the races. Our first race we didn't do so good...but improved on the second one, and actually made it into DIVISIon A!!! that was a really big achievement..then A finals came..and we paddled our best..i believe that every single person there gave it their ALL...4/18 is pretty good..i remember our last race at pickering was 2:30 something...but we finished this one with 2:12:60!!!!!!!! can't wait to PARRRRRRRRTAAYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!! race hard, party hard! Thanks for everyone who came out to support us and watch us race...*smiles*

Schedule for this week before Atlanta:
tuesday: go to chris's, fun d-boat practice, go shopping?, sew CCSA patch on my uniform
wednesday: help mike move to his new house, 6pm softball practice, 8pm drama team
thursday: Chris and janz coming over, getting ready for prom, PROM!!!
friday: chill with chris, go d/t with gen, 6pm softball practice, hosanna cell group
saturday: [dot]COM's double header 4pm adn 6pm, Gen's birthday dinner
sunday: dragonboat party?, dinner w/chris?, shopping?
monday: driving lessons, pack, chill, piano at 8
tuesday: leave for Atlanta: flight at 8:00am
*sigh* i'm gonna miss everybody!!!!!!!!!!

i guess its time to write a long long blog again! it's been sitting empty since i opened it on msn..talking on msn makes time pass so quickly cuz by the time i get to answer the next person it's been like 20 minutes! anyways..got to talk to esther..we haven't talked in sooooooo LONG...well it seems like a long time everytime i'm away from her *sigh* hehe..we realized how much alike we are AGAIN...i meann we know what each others is gonna say before we say it..or we say the same thing at the smae time..its so funniee!! we can have our own conversations w/out the other person. =) got some "big-sister" advice and stuff...i'm scared of afterparties now and definitely not going after prom...chris is gonna kill me anyways o.O hehehe well i'm really erally excited about prom still...hehe..i guess theres been a situation and i'm kinda helping out a friend by going too..and gona get to see all my friends who are graduating m'be some for the last time cuz we probably won't talk in the summer much =( i'll miss you guys!!! hmm anyways.update on the weekend....
+ saturday, went to Pickle Barrel for Pam's birthday..but then i started getting sick that morning so then i couldn't be as energetic as i could be..oh well.the food there was yummyyy.and it was funny watching josh and jimmy eat their monster sandwichess lol..i don't understand how the skinniest guys ever can fit so much in tehir stomachess!! and still never get FAT!!! on the other hand SOME GUYS...just get fat cuz they eat WAAAAAAAYYY TOOOOOOO MUCH!! *ahem* after that chilled at aaron's house and plyaed mahjong*whooohoo* i realize my cousin taught me how to play wrong..we used to play with cardsss in likee gr6 lol
+ sunday, went to church...it was really amazing to see so many peopel in teh eng congregation now..we had at least 80 people...which is really really GOOD for us!! the church is grownig so much...and Hosanna fellowship is growing so much as well..i dotn' wanna leave..i'll miss it..after so many years..even thoguh sometime i say that it's boring and i don't do much, i'l miss watching the kids grow up!! and they grow up FAST..i'll miss being "big sister" and then being the youngest in alethia..*sigh* time goes buy so fast...hm then after that me and adrian went to the BASIC softball practice..it was really fun!! got to practice muh second basing..and stuff..then all the NON-BASIC played against BASIC..hhahaa itw as all funn buhh i think we still kicked their butts! wel that was funn...and then i went home..and had the most emotional night ever...i dnot' know..i don't usually cry and it was really something that made me bring up the past, which is hard to talk about, because noone can understand what i've been through...but i was able to talk to him about it..a bit..*sigh* things ARE getting better..some because of him =) thanks for being there for me..you make it so much easier for me to go through LIFE in so many ways...things are gonna change for GOOD *smiles*
+ ahhh i think i'm not that sick anymore!! last night couldn't really sleeep kept waking up and coughing and stufff and i coudln't breathe..but i think people's prayers really helped =) on sunday, i prayed with one of my STM Team members and it was so comforting..to know that we can pray for each other as a team..and he was telling me a story about his two kids..how he doesn't think he spends enough time with them becuase he's a doctor and always away..and he just wants to be a good father and that children grow up so quickely..he doesn't want his kids to grow up not having spent time with their dad..and not knowing how much he loves them =) it made me wana cry!! hehe...aiii why am i so emotional lately?!?!

+ wow..i'm soo tired, and this day is only half over. This morning woke up at 8 to pack up stuff for Dyan's garage sale and get ready for the carnival..then went to drop off my stuff there, and went to Church. The carnival was sooo fun, but it was hot all day..lol. me and char went to art's office and hid behind the door and in the closet..then he came in and we scared him GOOD!!! it was sooo funny! carnival was wicked...it was mostly church people who came, but it was still a success!! got ERIC TWICE in a row in dunktank!!! hehehe =) hmm..then Chris came afterwards and we went to watch Shrek 2 --funniest movie EVER MADE!!! "weeeee i'm a real boy!!!" lol..then after that we went home and i got my new phone!! FINALLY!!!!! still using my old number, but my new phoen is soooo NICE!!! hehehehheeh i'm soo happy...no more getting made fun of for the ugly black non-colour fat peanut phone..*blech* gonna burn that thing ween i get all my numbers back.
+ hehee..thennn after that we went to Dyan's and picked up my leftover stuff from teh garage sale..made $32.50!!!! yayyyyyyyyy lol..then went with Chris to markville and spent $15 of it on three lipglosses..mangopeach, cranberry and another mango for my sis =) yhehehe then went to shoppers and got some make up *yay*
hmmm what else..now i'm at josh's house waiting tuh go to pam's b-day..and..i think he needs the comp soo i'm gone!!! *smiels*

thx jay, for these
Top ten signs that you're a Hardcore Dragon Boater:

10. After a meeting at work, you form a line outside the boardroom
and high-five everyone as they file out.

9. Brother's wedding or the Montreal Dragon Boat Festival? Why, that
practically answers itself.

8. When stopped at an intersection, you see a car creeping over the
solid white line and yell, "man in the red Ford…back it down or
you're disqualified!"

7. You have calluses on your ass and palms the size of quarters

6. When running with your friends to catch the last train home from
work, you yell "series in 5...4…3…2…1".

5. You are starting to resemble the body shape of a gorilla.

4. You know what a heart attack feels like already.

3. You argue with a 90 year old lady who is sitting in the middle of
the bus, claiming that you always sit in the 'engine room'.

2. After a bout of lovemaking with your significant other, you
say 'let it run'

1. You have finally found something that smells worse than your
hockey bag...PADDLING SHOES!